The next few days were horrendous. I had lost my best friend, my angel, my Wife. I didn’t know how i could carry on living without her. I knew I had to, i still had to raise our children. But doing it alone was not going to be easy. I wrote a short poem and posted it on my Facebook page. It summed up my thoughts and feelings.
Trying to get through each and every day
Since you were sadly taken away
I sometimes wish i was way up high
With you, another star in the sky
I know the kids need me around
So i have to stay here on the ground
As hard as it is all alone inside
I will continue to look up at you, far and wide
The funeral date was set for the 12th July 2018. The funeral was something to focus on.
During this time, I have had tremendous support from some truly amazing and wonderful people. The Salvation Army, our local Church, my parents, Lyanda’s Dad and his girlfriend, Lyanda’s grandparents and other members of both our families. There have also been 5 friends that have been outstanding in their support with me and the kids.
Without all the support, I hate to think what could have happened. I was in an extremely bad way, and I could have done anything. I definitely had the thoughts. I still do. But the kids need me, and that’s all that is keeping me going at the moment. And the support of family and friends.
And an amazing amount of support from a bunch of strangers on the internet with one common interest. A bunch of strangers I now call family too. I have met a few of them, i hope to meet a lot more. We bicker, we fight, we argue and we laugh. And we are there for each other when it is needed.
I have thanked everyone in any way i can for all they have done. I hope I don’t let anyone down. All I can do is get by, one step at a time – one day at a time. I thank you all from the bottom of my heart, and will be eternally grateful for your support and generosity.
Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton